My Breastfeeding Journey- Things I’ve struggled with

“Breastfeeding is an amazing experience, it’s a wonderful bond between the mother and the baby” – This is what we hear most of the time and we all assume that it’s the easiest thing and it will happen just naturally and so no planning would be necessary. That’s what I thought.

Throughout our pregnancy, most moms-to-be including me, we concentrate only till the time we give birth.

We watch lots and lots of birth videos, how to struggle with the pain, things we need for the hospital, how to dress up the baby…but no one told us about the important thing we will be doing to the baby.

Nursing, We just assumed it will all just happen smoothly.

Well, let me just stop you right there !!

Minutes after my daughter was born, she was all cleaned and brought to me for her very first nursing session. My little bub was a champ she latched perfectly, or that’s what my doctors told me.

I was very happy about it and thought I’m going to nurse this baby girl as long as she wants to.

Well, was I wrong?? In about an hour my whole idea changed, Oh my God…I can’t nurse my child…how can she cause me this much pain, and she doesn’t even have teeth yet !!

Every time she had to sleep I had to nurse and she sleeps, after 20 minutes she is hungry again. Hello, Cluster feeding!

This kept happening and happening and left me with nothing but pain. It’s like a mini human is just glued to your body all the time. Sleep deprivation, please let’s not even go there.

Cluster feeding broke my sleep. She would wake up every half an hour and nurse. That is hard.

Every nursing session began with screams and cries, I’m not talking about the baby !!Feeding her became the source of anxiety, I cried a lot. What am I doing wrong? I watch videos after videos for proper baby latching.

But nothing helped.

My mom helped me a lot throughout the whole process, every night she wakes up along with me while I soothe the baby.

Seriously guys what will we do without our moms.

Days went by still nothing changed except for my sore and cracked nipples.

Every time she cries for her feed, I cry to feed.

This went along till I finally went to see my pediatrician. He suggested to put me on a mild antibiotic for 3 days.

After 3 days purely all my pain was gone.

Before that, I was so ashamed to go see my doctor. I thought, “How can all the other mothers out there nurse and why couldn’t I ??

What will the doctor think?? What kind of a mother am I? “

But seriously guys, that one trip changed my whole perspective of breastfeeding.

There were days when I thought I should just stop with 3 months and start with formula.

But it happened, now I can understand why they say Breastfeeding is an amazing bonding.

To all the moms-to-be and my awesome ladies, If you ever feel your failing as a mother, or you couldn’t nurse your baby, just hang in there. If you had to get help, there is nothing to be ashamed of. End of the day we are humans too.

It will get better. I promise.

If I could do it, then you can too.

I have nothing against formula fed babies. But Breastfeeding babies are always special. Because they make their mothers feel special.

Aradhana, my baby girl is now 16 months old and we still breastfeed. That’s 16 months of life I have provided for my beautiful daughter and I am damn proud of it.

I really want to thank the Lord and my mom for making it possible.

Thank you so much for reading my post. If you have any doubts about Breastfeeding I’ll be happy to help with the little knowledge I know.

Please do share your comments below.

-lovedbymercybivin

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